Have you ever felt that life was
essentially unjust? That you were being ground to dust between the
gears of a cosmic machine that was deaf to your cries of pain? Are
you approaching a point at which your only shred of control in a
personal world spinning out of control is to rebel against life
itself, to hate life?
Oddly enough, you might come to this
conclusion whether you are immersed in pleasure or drowning in
suffering, soaked in sin or walking in righteousness. The world’s
wisest fool (Solomon), and the world’s most righteous sinner (Job)
both came to the same conclusion: they hated life.
King Solomon is described in
Ecclesiastes chapters one and two as a man with such immense wealth
that Bill Gates looks impoverished by comparison. In his own words,
Solomon withheld no pleasure from himself: All that my eyes
desired I did not refuse them. I did not withhold my heart from any
pleasure . . . (Eccl 2:10). Solomon pursued meaning in
accomplishments, buildings, agriculture, sex, alcohol, various
pleasures, fame, wealth, wisdom and knowledge—in other words, in
virtually every arena of human endeavor. To top it all off, he had
power untold as the king of Israel’s golden age. And what did it
all produce? Despair. In his own words: So I hated life. . .
(Eccl 2:17).
Job is described as a wealthy man, the
greatest of all the men in the east (Job 1:3). God’s own
valuation of His servant is remarkable: Have you considered My
servant Job? For there is no one like him on the earth, a blameless
and upright man, fearing God and turning away from evil (Job
1:8). And yet when great suffering descended upon Job, his steps
faltered and he expresses despair very similar to Solomon’s: I
loathe my own life; (Job 10:1).
What gives? How is it these two very
different men with very different experiences wind up in despair
expressed in very similar ways?
In essence, Solomon was living “under
the sun.” In other words he was not denying God’s existence but
was denying that God makes a difference. The fact that God exists was
to Solomon irrelevant to life in a fallen world. God was to Solomon a
transcendent distant judge who would render final verdicts, but not
an immanent Shepherd who cares for our souls. Life was a cosmic
machine in which it doesn’t really matter what we do, because all
that we accomplish would be left to the one who follows us, and who
knows whether that one will be wise or foolish? God was there,
Solomon acknowledged, but his goodness was in question.
Job was utterly convinced of God’s
sovereignty: “With Him are wisdom and might;
To Him belong counsel and understanding.
Behold, He tears down, and it cannot be
rebuilt; He imprisons a man, and
there can be no release. Behold, He
restrains the waters, and they dry up; And
He sends them out, and they inundate the earth” (Job
12:13–15).
But he had lost confidence in God’s
goodness. Job felt that God was being unjust, “What did I do to
deserve this?” How then can I answer Him,
And choose my words before Him? For
though I were right, I could not answer; I
would have to implore the mercy of my judge. If
I called and He answered me, I could
not believe that He was listening to my voice. For
He bruises me with a tempest And
multiplies my wounds without cause. He
will not allow me to get my breath, But
saturates me with bitterness. If it
is a matter of power, behold, He is the strong one! And
if it is a matter of justice, who can summon Him? Though
I am righteous, my mouth will condemn me; Though
I am guiltless, He will declare me guilty. I
am guiltless; I do not take notice
of myself; I despise my life.
It is all one; therefore I say, ‘He
destroys the guiltless and the wicked’ (Job
9:14–22).
The similarity between the wise fool
and the righteous sinner that led them both to despair in such
different circumstances lies in the fact that they had lost touch
with the nearness of God, the immanent care of God, the love of God,
the overwhelming goodness of God. Solomon couldn’t see it because
he was living as if the existence of God bore little significance to
life other than ultimate judgment. Job couldn’t see it because he
assumed his suffering was unjust: he had no category in his theology
of suffering that would encompass suffering not because of personal sin but for the
glory of God (a theology that waited upon the coming of Christ).
Indeed, the challenges Job hurls at God are answered in Christ: Have
You eyes of flesh? Or do You see as
a man sees? Are Your days as the
days of a mortal, Or Your years as
man’s years, That You should seek
for my guilt And search after my
sin? According to Your knowledge I
am indeed not guilty, Yet there is
no deliverance from Your hand (Job
10:4–7). Christ indeed was not guilty, yet there was no
deliverance for Him because redemption for Solomon, Job, you and I
was hinging upon the death of the sinless Lamb of God.
There was a time that David was caught up in despair too, as he relates in Psalm 73: But as for me, my feet came close to stumbling, My steps had almost slipped. For I was envious of the arrogant As I saw the prosperity of the wicked (Psalm 73:2–3). But after working through his anger, bitterness, and his sneaking suspicion that God was unjust, David comes to a conclusion that is helpful for you and I when we feel hopelessly and helplessly tied to the rails of God’s sovereignty: Whom have I in heaven but You? And besides You, I desire nothing on earth. My flesh and my heart may fail, But God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. For, behold, those who are far from You will perish; You have destroyed all those who are unfaithful to You. But as for me, the nearness of God is my good; I have made the Lord God my refuge, That I may tell of all Your works (Psalm 73:25–28).
There was a time that David was caught up in despair too, as he relates in Psalm 73: But as for me, my feet came close to stumbling, My steps had almost slipped. For I was envious of the arrogant As I saw the prosperity of the wicked (Psalm 73:2–3). But after working through his anger, bitterness, and his sneaking suspicion that God was unjust, David comes to a conclusion that is helpful for you and I when we feel hopelessly and helplessly tied to the rails of God’s sovereignty: Whom have I in heaven but You? And besides You, I desire nothing on earth. My flesh and my heart may fail, But God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. For, behold, those who are far from You will perish; You have destroyed all those who are unfaithful to You. But as for me, the nearness of God is my good; I have made the Lord God my refuge, That I may tell of all Your works (Psalm 73:25–28).
If you know Christ, you are not stuck
in a cosmic machine. Rather, you are
an actor on the stage of a cosmic contest in which God’s righteous
judgment is being vindicated, and His mercy and grace are being
revealed. The most fundamental piece of your faith to cling to when
life is tumbling down around your ears is also the simplest piece of
theology: God is good. You are good and
do good; Teach me Your statutes
(Psalm 119:68).
His infinite worth is best proclaimed
by those who are satisfied in Him, even in times of great suffering.
Your life is not devoid of meaning, as Solomon thought, nor is it
empty or futile. Because of Christ, all that you do, all that you
suffer, all that you attempt in Christ’s name has significance,
whether or not you see the result in this life. That's part of what it means to walk by faith.